It's been a long time since i blogged...
Times flies very fast and sometimes i really wish that time who stop at the peak but i know this would never happen. Recently, i realise that i am still not ready to trust anyone fully and i cannot even pour out my true feelings of how i really feel about something to anyone. Whenever i am unhappy, sad or angry i will just keep it to myself. I think that music would probably be the best company and the only company that i will need. AND my favourite place is the toilet because thats one of the places that i can show my feelings like cry when i am sad, laugh or keep smiling when i am happy, throw tandrum when i am angry or even show that i am scared. What a joke right ? but this is me and my life.
Pretty boring this holiday..nothing much happens except that i work, eat, sleep, goes out shopping at times or go to k-box and sing out loud.
Today is my first day of third year in school..
so far there is some of the people i know in my class which i am quite glad and my today's lesson and facilitators seems to be not too bad. Well, much better than last year as i had to study all the modules that i hate and all have to do with computer like java, c++, php, html, data communications, operating systems, system analysis and design which was BORING AND I HATE IT...though this year i will not be learning i will have to use what i learnt last year for my FYP. =(
ANother thing is my bf is sometimes pretty childish and it makes me dislike him at times. He doesn't care about me just like just now when i went to look for him just now he told me that he got things to do and have to leave immediately. He didn't even give a 5 mins...wtf and it really piss me off...i walk all the way there to hear him saying that and seems like i am a hindrance to him. And he is damn rude to me makes me really don't know how to face my friends at time. I do feel embarrasment and so dissapointed that how i wish i would dissapear on that spot. Haiish...
Don't know when will all my unluckiness and tragic things stop in my life.
Labels: Helpless and sad =(
